#(tho tbf when I get drunk I do start wanting to kiss people. it would probably be a bad idea though.)

[festivalofthe12]

I'm gonna be honest with y'all. I have put a lot of thought into it, and I quite simply cannot see Yuki Sohma at the club cheerily throwing down jelly shots off some one-night-stand's muscular chest.

(Like... once, maybe? If Kakeru drags him and it's such a sensory overload he gets way too drunk and wakes up regretting every one of his life choices and a deep paranoia that the stranger he vaguely remembers making out with stole money from his wallet and/or kindly drove him home and now Yuki can't even contact him to offer thanks.)

I get that a lot of people want him to have like these 'universal gay experiences', but I'll be real: some of us are just fucking boring. And there are sooooooo many other ways to let an early 20s Yuki explore that queer side of himself!!

Like, let him get a proper interest in fashion (since god knows he already dresses well enough for it) and really lean into his glorious androgynous somewhat-femme model energy up against Kakeru's gremlin manchild. Get him into independent theatre and dance. Give him a friendgroup of disconnected bohemians who chat about poetry and entry-level philosophy, smoke weed, and share tips on dealing with their no-contact abusive families while Yuki sits expressionlessly in a corner, gripping on just a little too tightly to his appletini before driving home in silence.

[izzyspussy]

@dykerory said:

okay but what if you messaged me your thoughts in extreme detail

well most of the fics i saw had the devil trapping her in the loop in order to? get with daniel i guess. like the dark lord satan is a shipper or something aksjfks. but anyway, regardless of the pairing or lackthereof, this just doesn't make sense to me in accordance with the devil's narrative purpose and such.

like, to begin with ready or not in my opinion does not lend itself particularly well to fanfiction (unless you want to write pseudo-incestuous infidelity porn or whatever, which of course good for you if you do but ain't nobody doing that smdh) but like. in my opinion the story is complete, with no glaring holes, with satisfying and thematically consistent ends for all characters, and with the story and themes very well portrayed and not particularly ambiguous (while at the same time affording the audience the ability to just be like ''haha girl in wedding dress vs pack of incompetent rich people who will win?'').

AND in addition, there's really nothing for the devil to gain by putting grace in a time loop of this day. he's not portrayed as cruel in this iteration, he represents the deliberate and then habitual bankrupting of one's own morality and the consequences thereof. nor is he portrayed as benevolent (i.e. would want to reward her with romance or save daniel when daniel had the option to save himself all along and chose to get drunk and marry someone he didn't love instead).

the only reason he'd do anything to grace is if he thought she was also At RiskTM to turn herself into an immoral person in exchange for some stupid material thing. he's not here to torture or trick "good" people, he's not even here to punish "bad" people, the point is that they did it to themselves! and he already determined grace wasn't Like Them by making the card come up hide and seek in the first place.

sorry this turned into a whole ass summary of the thing as preface but like. this is where i'm coming from. this is why the other time loop fics don't make sense. he-would-not-fucking-do-that.jpg. i mean even though the devil himself is only there - somewhat ambiguously - for like five seconds, his character is clear through the deal itself and- anyway.

so - and tbf in my opinion my version is also a huge stretch of the devil's character and the deal and such, but i was starting with the idea and working backwards here, but it's at least no just putting a different character in there for the purposes of Making Them Kiss or whatever (which like fine, whatever, do what you want who cares, but that's awfully boring and you could just write a coffee shop au or something idk) - if we want a time loop that is the devil's doing, then either grace would have to ask him for a deal, or we would have to fudge his character a little bit to make him want to Get Her Too as part of the family. there wouldn't be any "redo it until you get it right" as a goal that would break the loop and that's why the loop is there. he'd be wanting her to get it wrong and morally bankrupt herself. (but again like. she's only one person, and he already determined she wasn't Like That by picking hide and seek in the first place so like. we're stretching. we're stretching really hard man.) and she'd break the loop by *not* morally bankrupting herself *and* achieving whatever incredibly improbable happening that is the best case scenario or whatever.

and personally i would still have it be daniel getting out. (doubtful that i would pair them up tho tbh. sure they had tension, maybe i'd have them fuck in a loop or two, whatever, but i think in this case it's more poignant and on-model for them to have a kind of semi-platonic found family dynamic. but whatever that's just me.) but like, the deal would be phrased ambiguously, and being that grace is not a third party observer like us she wouldn't know going in how devil's deals work like we do.

so, like, the sentences and phrases that are running through my mind are the opening bit, where i stretch the devil's characterization and have him tell grace she could "save him" if she wants to. and she thinks "fuck no, fuck him, fuck all of them, they got what they deserved" first (true), and then she thinks about daniel, and then she thinks about the children - not innocent by any stretch, but still children - and then she thinks about alex (she was going to marry him after all, you know, there was a guy there - who was not the real guy - but when you love him you want him to be real, if only you can make the perfect world that makes him so). but anyway so she doesn't answer quickly enough in words, so the devil takes her thoughts as her answer instead and starts the loop.

but the loop isn't the wedding day, and it's not a single day at all in fact. she starts on the day she and alex met. and on the first go she sees him across campus (or wherever they met? that part was the least important detail so idr it) and simply turns right around. so the loop starts over after one day then, because that's not right.

and then she goes through a few loops thinking she's supposed to "save" alex, and since she doesn't know how the deal works (yet) she doesn't know how to tell if it's working or when it's too late or whatever, so a few times she still gets all the way to the wedding day and playing hide and seek and them exploding, and the devil sitting in his chair smiling and then flickering into plain flame, etc etc.

and eventually she starts to figure out how the deal works, but she still thinks she's here to "save" alex, so she's still getting with him and trying to get him to fully believe what he professes and give up the money and get disowned or just ghost the family or whatever and not take the money and exempt himself from the benefits and therefore the punishment. but he never does, and she always has to either leave him and start over, or marry him and play hide and seek again and then start over.

but of course every time she plays hide and seek, daniel eventually tries to help her. and now she mostly gets how the deal works, so she realizes okay. maybe alex can't be saved, and she's actually here for daniel (not true, she's here to give up, but daniel is the only one she could save).

so then she has to figure out how to get close enough to daniel to encourage him to stop drowning his guilt and face it instead, to make choices instead of passively accepting his wealth and its evil. maybe she tries a couple of times to tell him about the loops, but he's basically a coward until it gets right to the wire so he probably just drinks harder and runs away from her when she does that. and meanwhile, grace has to still at least initially get with alex because that's how she meets daniel, so then she has to juggle alex and charity too. see? impossible, surely.

but, you know. you put grace in a Situation and she's gonna make it out of there if for no other reason than to spite you and tell you to go fuck yourself. so, she never succumbs to despair/self-pity/greed and becomes the person who doesn't pull the hide and seek card, and she doesn't get stuck forever either. eventually, she actually does manage to save daniel - or rather to influence him enough that he saves himself. (and then the devil breaks the loop, because now he's losing on his investment.)

i will not write ready or not fanfiction. i will not write ready or not fanfiction. i will not write ready or not fanfiction.

[malboroniights]

Downfalls High

Thoughts? feelings?

I’m gonna put a read more on this for people who don’t want to read all my opinions. I will resume my regular shit posting and fic writing soon enough. I just need to talk about it.

Also this ended up being a lot longer than I thought it would be.

I’ve only watched it through once. But I'm gonna watch through again while I write this out so that I don’t miss anything I wanted to talk about.

So from the intro alone it wasn’t what I was expecting this isn’t a negative, just not a conventional movie. More like a short/indie short with a bigger budget than a standard indie. The end of Colson's monologue also doesn't add up to the ending of the film. But like it's a vibe so we move.

Why is this on Facebook at 1080p at best?, sound quality is so compressed on Facebook. Here's hoping they put it on youtube at least in 4k.

title track - I love this song so much. Still remember my first listen and being blown away by it and this part of the movie does it so much justice to be honest. Big up title track!

The transition into '8 months earlier' is so smooth, props to who decided on it.

kiss kiss - good intro to the characters. Colson playing the guitar out of the van window had me dead :')

some dialogue! Also Sydney Sweeney we already been knew she is an amazing actress but she was sick in this. Chase Hudson did really well in this actually, I know he gets a lot of shit from coming from TikTok and things he's said in the past. Always hold people accountable but let them try and be better.

drunk face -  really like how they did the sound mixing on this one so it wasn't a direct copy from the album. The Travis and Colson visuals for this one were great Idk I just liked it. Cute part of the film + the song just made this part *chef's kiss* VHS parts felt like they fit the vibe more here than on kiss kiss.

bloody valentine - at this point I was hoping for more speaking parts but then bv kicked in. I wish they either had more time or turned it into a series maybe? IDK the idea of the story is right there be perfect for a series. Visuals on Colson and Trav again perfect on this one, happy Slim and Baze were in on this one too. I think Baze and Slim being in this one is making it feel more like a show and missing me live music so much rn.

body bag - Okay so I got a little excited when the track started because I wasn't sure whether they would include songs off Sold Out, to be honest, but they did so v. grateful. This scene definitely went too quickly into another song though. More speaking pls.

forget me too - mohawk kells mohawk kells mohawk kells! - The reverse effect at the start was really smart. This part was slightly confusing at first cause they were fighting so I thought maybe she's told him she was pregnant. What a dick response but no she hadn't told him yet so just didn't make a lot of sense to me. Would have been cool to see the characters actually at/on the rink while they performed kind of like title track where it's like they're almost not really there.

all i know - Mod's cameo! The visuals of Colson and Trippie were good until the parts on the backlot, I feel like this just took you out of the movie. Like I get it but nah this one was my least favorite 'visualizer'. Loved Trippie's isolated vocals over the Sidney buying the guitar scene though.

lonely - AHHH this song, man think I cried the first 5 times I listened to it and when he played it live at the Roxy. The visuals for this one were perfect. VHS parts fit really well again here. "When the high runs out the downfall is inevitable." AHH so good just nothing bad to say about this part tbf.

WWIII - They hadn't location or time marked any other part so felt odd to add it at this point and also never do it again. Landon is basically mini Trav same facial expressions and everything thought it was sweet they put him in. Plus his acting was good. This is my go-to end of the week leaving work song. I know people have a lot of shit to say about this song online. But you have not lived till your going home fast in your car screaming this song.

hangover cure - another amazing song from Sold Out. Just vibin.

concert for aliens - okay actually really liked this scene besides people throwing up(?) in the visualizer part with Colson and Trav. Idk just weird I'm like scared of throwing up, cool Lil Aaron cameo tho.

my ex's best friend - no major thoughts just vibin.

split a pill - AHH this song, gutted only a background song tbf. It deserves all the love and more.

jawbreaker - alls I can think about is the serious clown lung they both must have after filming with all the flour :')

nothing inside - on the second watch I'm more confused at what Fenix is even doing. But loving Iann and Colson's visualizer. Okay, just a small breakdown guess he's okay now. To not have Fenix lip-sync to the "I'm running low on serotonin..." line was missed drama imo.

banyan tree interlude - beautiful. Don't you love that Megan wrote this? I do. But the pillow and blanket - bro - like I'm sad but got to be cozy right? :') also why not cut out the 'same' iykyk.

play this when i'm gone - 10/10 monologue. Honestly wasn't ready for it to end tho.

Wasn't what I expected but honestly, it's so sick. Very grateful for Colson and Mod and anybody else who worked on it, because no matter what I've written above about not liking or understanding certain parts I did love it. It's a crime we haven't got to see these songs performed in person yet.

if you’ve read this far, hi :)

also if you want to talk about it drop me a message

[aurailia]

i was tagged by @likepotato so tysm!!

Last

drink: capri sun 😎

phone call: my mum bc she was supposed to be picking me up from college

text message: my friend jess

song you listened to: someone gets hurt (reprise) - mean girls musical

time you cried: idk actually

ever

dated someone twice: yeah lol

kissed someone and regretted it: yeah bc it was gross and slimy ):

been cheated on: no lol

lost someone special: yeah ):

been depressed: not diagnosed but im sad a lot

gotten drunk and thrown up: no lol

fave color: pinkkkk

in the last year have you

made new friends: i think

fallen out of love: only with fandoms

laughed until you cried: yeah lol -- just today actually

found out someone was talking about you: yeah but it’s fine bc we hate each other and i do the same to her (:

met someone who changed you: no lol

found out who your friends are: ig??

kissed someone on your facebook friends list: i kissed them before i got fb but we’re friends on it now tho if that counts?

how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all of them bc im safe

do you have any pets: yeah!! A cat called lilly who’s a brat and i love her

do you want to change your name: aurelia would be nice but i’ll stick with jess

what did you do for your last birthday: well u see that was 4 months ago and idk what i did yesterday so -- i think we just had a barbeque and a sleepover bc i got a phone instead of a sweet sixteenth thing so

what time did you wake up today: like 7:40am idk

what were you doing at midnight last night: drawing and watching youtube

what is something you can’t wait for: death

what are you listening to right now: hung up - madonna

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah lol -- one’s an absolute mad lad, the other one’s a vegan -- very different people, still both cool tho

something that gets on your nerves: everything lol

most visited website: youtube

hair color: pink

long or short hair: shoulder length

what do you like about yourself: i got pink hair

want any piercings: yeah i want a septum piercing but my mum says no ):

blood type: idk actually

nicknames: jess, bunger, thot, jessicat

relationship status: Single

zodiac: taurus

pronouns: She/her

Fave tv shows: Brooklyn 99, Community, X files

tattoos: none but i want a little kitty paw

right or left handed: left

ever had surgery: yeah bc the top of my finger came off and they had to put it back on, also my eyelid split open once but i think they just glued that back together

piercings: earrings

sport: used to do gymnastics?? Occasionally went mountain biking and walking with parents and even less occasionally went canoeing with them -- started going to the gym tho recently

vacation: yeah i went to menorca with two of my friends in june

Trainers: have i ever trainers???? what????

more general

Eating: rn?? nothing - tho i want party rings ):

Drinking: nothing rn

about to watch: im watching ATLA rn so i can watch Korra bc it looks good

waiting for: bed

want: tbf another cat

want to get married:  idk actually

career: smthn artsy

which is better

hugs or kisses: hugs

lips or eyes: depends on the scenario

shorter or taller: i mean im shorter so short ppl are better but if i was going to date someone i want them to be taller than me

older or younger: ,,,????

nice arms or stomach: ???

hookup or relationship: relationship

troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

have you ever

kissed a stranger: probably??? Im not too sure actually??? Not on the lips i dont think

drunk hard liquor: tastes gross so no

lost glasses: dont wear them

turned someone down: yeah lol

sex on first date: no lol im 16

broken someone’s heart: i wouldnt say i broke their hearts but i just didnt date them

had your heart broken: no lol

been arrested: not yet

cried when someone died: yeah )))::: movies and irl

fallen for a friend: yep but we were like 10?? But then it lasted on and off again for 3 years so,,,,,,

do you believe in

yourself: no lol

miracles: where you from, you sexy thing (honestly tho idk rly,,,)

love at first sight: imo if ur dating it should be for personality and u cant tell that at first glance so no

santa: no ):

kiss on a first date: if u want to sure

Angels: hm

others

best friend’s name: i dont wanna chose between them ): the two ive been friends with for the longest are called Elin and Charlotte

eye color: hazel (so like brown in the middle, green on the outside)

fave movie: uh,,,,, like idk?? What We Do In the Shadows is good, Bridge to Terabithia always makes me cry so that’s good

fave actors: i rly liked aubrey hepburn as a person if that counts?? Havent seen any of her movies yet though -- other than her tho, Chris Hemsworth is a gem, so is Anne Hathaway and Helen Mirren

I'm gonna tag @rainbowdovelove @gallium-plus-yttrium-equals-gay @my-therapist-took-my-superpowers @kissa-bear @legitimaterock @nev-e-r-m-i-n-d @yovngjustice

and like legit anyone who wants to do this just go for it man -- esp if we're mutuals!!

[heckyeahsurveys]

#265

What was on your mind mostly today? jack, like every day tbh

If someone looked on your bed, what would they find? a duvet n pillows, probs some clothes & a dressing gown

What’s on your schedule for tomorrow? going to my grandmas n then mayb kt’s in the evening

Are you nice to everyone? not everyone

Is it possible to be single and happy? well yeh, haven’t experienced it myself but sure 

Is it easy for people to make you cry? idk cos i don’t cry much in front of others (unless we’re close) but a lot of things do make me cry, so fuck knows tbh

Did you sleep alone last night? yes :((

Do you play with dead bugs? no wtf

Honestly, are you dating two people? no

Do you think things will change in the next 3 months? yeh i’m gonna leave n go to uni :(

Have you ever slept in the same bed with someone other than family?   yeh many times

Do you want to see somebody right now? jack

What if you had a baby with the person you like? hmm mayb not rn 

Are you happy? sometimes

Have you ever tripped in public? yes lol

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you? probs yeh

Have you ever sat in the back of a police car? nope

Are you stubborn? yep

Do you tend to hold a grudge? sometimes yeh

What’s a fact about the last person that texted you?   he’s the best :)

Has anyone called you perfect before? yes

Where is the biggest scar on your body? idk tbh, probs a nice eczema scar on my leg :))))

Have you ever been told you were amazing? yep

Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? idk

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment? nope

Do you trust all your friends? probs not all of them. idk tho tbh 

If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? noooo

What pissed you off today? idk nothing i can think os

What was the last thing you cried about? shrek lol

Who was the last girl you talked to? liz

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot? yeh like my entire family

Who sits next to you in English? i’m not in school 

Ever talked to someone who was drunk? yeh many times??

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yes too many 

How late did you stay up last night and why? like 4am cos we were pissed n it was fun

Do you know how to properly use grammar in a sentence?   sure, not that i always do tho lol

Are your parents very protective of you? not very, idk my dad can be a bit but they’re p reasonable most of the time tbf

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? yes

How many drugs are in your system?   nicotine?? 

The person who hurt you the most calls and needs you, do you go? can’t call myself can i lol xxxx

Is it easy to pretend everything’s okay for you? yeh

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to on the phone? yes 10000% 

Do you think you are a good person? not rly, idk define good d’you know what i mean??

What do you want right this second? to be w/ jack :(

Do you think it makes him weak if a guy cries? definitely not!

Have you ever cried cause you were so mad?   yes definitely

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?   yes

Who were you with on your birthday? family

Have you ever crawled through a window? i don’t think so

First person to talk to you in 2014? fuck knows???

Do you miss your past? sometimes yeh 

It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it? fuck knows

Do you have anything interesting planned for the next week? seeing jack!!! and going camping

Who was the last person to text you? Do you know when that person’s birthday is? jack, 20th march 

What were you doing 4 hours ago? watching shrek i think? or about to at least, idk exactly

Is there a certain song that you can’t stop listening to atm? a few 

Tell me 3 things that your friends don’t know about you. don’t think there’s anything tbh i’m literally an open book hahah

What is something that people often give to you as a gift? idk gift cards

Do you tend to hold on to a lot of stuff you don’t need, just because it has sentimental value? yeh

What is something that reminds you of your ex? nothing rly

Has the last person you kissed ever cried in your arms? no

Which would you prefer to receive as a gift - flowers or chocolate? probably flowers. i don’t eat much chocolate. flowers are pretty.

When did you last take a shower/bath? Do you wash your hair every time? bath yesterday n nah i was my hair separately

Would you prefer to be somewhere else right now? i keep saying this but w/ jack lmao

Do any of your followers on Tumblr have your phone number? no

Will you be going out tonight, or staying in? staying in, it’s 1am already anyway lol

How many times have you been in love? one i think

If you were heartbroken, who would help you pick up the pieces? my pals, mum n liz i guess

Apparently, it’s very common to crave chocolate around the ‘time of the month’; do you ever get that craving? yesss so much

What was your last reason for crying? shrek

How would you feel about dating someone who had a reputation for being a player in the past? Do you think that players will ALWAYS be players, or is it possible that they can change? idk

Did you sleep well last night? ish yeh, but got to bed v late n woke up hungover so yknow 

Is your bedroom big enough for you? sure, would be nice to have my own tho 

Are you looking forward to seeing someone soon? jackkkkkk

Ever had a one-night stand? nope

Is anyone flirting with you? no

Have you ever felt pressure to do anything you didn’t want to, like smoking, drinking, or losing your virginity, before you were ready for it? If so, how did you deal with that? nah

Do you consider yourself to be an intelligent person? Why/why not? reasonably yeh, idk i am academically at least

Who would you most like to be stuck in a lift with? jack

Is there anyone you’d HATE to be stuck in a lift with? probs, idk who tbf

When did you last talk to the person you love/like? What did you talk about? in person last tuesday :( but texted him like half an hour ago, talking about how his night was going

Have you ever seen your father cry? yes

How would your parents react if you got pregnant? not well probs

Do you/did you keep to your school’s uniform/dress code? mostly, apart from like i wore docs (n lots of eye makeup in year 10) but it wasn’t properly enforced, like foy said he didn’t wanna see me in my docs again several times but i never stopped wearing them cos i wouldn’t get in trouble??

If the last person you kissed said you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them? yes

What was the highlight of your summer? it’s barely started so idk

The last time you threw up, was it because you were hungover? no i was ill

Have you ever seen the film ‘Wake Wood’? What did you think of it? nope, never heard of it

Are you confused about anything atm? Is there anything bothering you? Or, is everything good? nah

If you say ‘I’ve had enough’ or ‘I’m done’, do you always mean it? no lol i’m just a drama queen

Who was the last person that invited you to their house? jenny?

Have your parents ever told you about any alternative names they considered for you, or the name they would have chosen, if you’d turned out to be a boy? yes

Are you friends with any of your exes? yeye

Have you ever had to make an emergency phone call? no??

If you’re in a relationship, how is it going? If you’re single, are you looking for someone? it’s going good! but i rly miss him atm

What language do you like the sound of? idk many - korean, russian, french, japanese n probs others tbh

Think about the last guy, outside of family, that you had a conversation with. Do you find him sexy?

in person that would be nathan n not rly no

What do you think is an assumption that someone could make about you, just by looking at your Tumblr? Would this assumption be correct? idk

What’s the most attractive physical feature of the person you love/like? his eyes n how they crinkle at the edges when he smiles cos it’s the cutest fucking thing in the entire world 

Do you consider yourself to be a strong person? Why/why not? sometimes, idk

Tell me about a special moment you’ve had with the person you love/like. idk just all the time we spend just cuddling in bed cos i feel so so so content and happy w/ him <3

What are you doing tomorrow? going to my grandmas n maybe katie’s